Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Daughter, Your faith has healed you

Today I am rejoicing in healing. Mark 5:34 says "Daughter, Your faith has healed you, go in peace and be freed from your suffering". I put my hope in that verse of God's word for the last two years; it was written in my phone, on my mirror, on my desk, in my heart. I believed, but the waiting was so hard. This journey has been difficult, but it could have been so much worse, and it has been such a blessing in disguise. I've had to rely on the Lord and trust in Him to get me through it. Looking back I can see more clearly how God lead me through it. I have seen His faithfulness time and time again.

I've had back pain since my sophomore year of highschool but didn't discover the cause was 3 ruptured discs until half way through my freshman year of college. We did everything to avoid surgery. Chiropractors, physical therapists, spinal decompression, cortisone epidural shots, everything. Instead of getting better it got progressively worse. I couldn't sit for more than 30 minutes without intense shooting pain down my sciatic nerve into my leg. I couldn't be active, go to the gym, or ski. Focusing during class was almost impossible.

The limitations it put on my life were frustrating, the whole situation seemed so endlessly aggravating. I cried so many tears over it. But He is faithful. Countless times He pulled me out of my frustration and literally spoke to my heart, saying "Kelsey, Do you trust me?  I will never leave or forsake you." And I had to trust. Which is so much easier said than done. I knew that surgery was the right decision, when Dr. Rambo, one of the best neurosurgeons in the Southeast asked if he could pray over me before we left the office visit. I knew that God had His hand on the surgery.

Finally, I am healed. I knew the moment I woke up that the pain would be gone 100%. I can sit, I can raise my leg, I can stretch, I can do so many things that I used to take for granted. I am absolutely joyful that I am pain free! Praise the Lord, from whom all blessings flow. When I was sitting in my follow up appointment today, I had to choke back the tears. It finally hit me. That this season is over. I was overwhelmed with gratitude and joy. I am so thankful for my God who brings healing and comfort. He is there in the hard seasons of life and He is there in the joyous seasons of life. I literally can't put my thankfulness into words. I don't know how to verbalize it, but I am just overwhelmed by the the love of God today. Praise Him.